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I went to a church in the Valley on Sunday, and it really made me think about true worship. I don't want this to be taken the wrong way... I love going to country churches... I love the routines and the hymn books and the organ and the choir. I really do. But sometimes I just wonder... I would say that 90% of the deacons were women. Now, I don't have a moral problem with female deacons or pastors (the pastor is a woman, as well). I can understand women wanting to be in leadership in the church and serve in a more full-time way, like a pastor. What bothers me is that men are getting lazy and expecting women to run everything and plan everything. It seems that all they want to do is show up, if that. I know that not all churches are like this, but a significant portion of the country Baptist ones that I've been to are. I just want to know why so many men just don't care anymore. Why? Why don't they want to take a role of spiritual leadership?? I love that I know so many men who do want to be spiritual leaders. I just wish that those ones that I know weren't the minority...

Anyway, I was at church, I thought to myself, "There has to be something more than this. Aren't these people bored? I'm bored. I'm bored with reading prayers that you've written the night before. I'm bored with singing the same old hymns. I'm bored with perfectly scripted sermons. There is no life in this church. There's no relationship. There's no sense of worship." I don't know why people continue to come week after week. I don't know why they aren't bored to death. There's just nothing... nothing holding people there, nothing to make you long for a church service or any sort of spiritual experience... It's so empty. There has to be something more. There has to be.